This is me:

update

2009-06-07T16:03:00.001-07:00

i haven't written in FOREVER! wow, i haven't even looked at this page in some time. i don't even know what to say, and that's the beauty of it all. I can write whatever i want, whenever i want. isn't it a great thing! hooray for the first ammendment! well, i could write about my most recent trip to San Francisco, and what i learned there. Or, i could write about my life for the past forever. But, i don't want to. I think it's interesting how, when i finally have the opportunity to put my thoughts somewhere where somebody will pay attention, if only for a moment, and i can write as much as i want to about whatever i want to, i don't feel the need. Sometimes, our selfish needs and desires are fulfilled when we merely stop and listen to others. hmm, funny how that works isn't it? :)
well, i don't know that i will write much more ever again.once something like this dies down a bit, it is very likely that it will die altogether. so, keep it real in my absence!

My thoughts right now

2008-12-30T12:39:00.000-08:00

I was looking at my blog just now, and I realized, i must be a very angry person! oh my goodness. plus all my recent pictures on facebook, seriously, i'm so serious! well, i didn't think i was, but seeing as that is what the evidence presents, it must be true. hmm. That is something i need to do better at. when i'm with people i'm comfortable with, i have to trouble being happy, but when I'm with people i really don't care for, i tend to be rude, onry and inconsiderate. That would be a good new year's resolution. Of course, i have a hard time with goals. you see, i hate setting them, and hate even more the fact that i have a goal that i have to complete. (there's a lot of hate going around here, but it's true) I honestly don't like doing things because i have to. maybe i'm just a spoiled brat and i need to just buck up and do it (probably). Anyway. my other new year's goals include filling one of my journals. (it's not the biggest one, and it's almost half full now, but i've got to start somewhere.) Yup. I think those are good goals. i've got more, but to explain them in this blog would make this entirely too long. :). anyway. that's my thoughts right now. thanks for reading :) happy birthday!

My Essay: i think everyone should be aware of this

2008-11-12T17:22:00.000-08:00

Hero-less Slaughter
Since January 1973, there have been over 35 million deaths, more than 30 times the deaths of the Civil War, World War I and II, Korean War, Vietnam War, and the Persian Gulf War combined. That’s an average of one million innocent lives savagely slaughtered each year. Abortion is wrong. It is murder. The mother won’t know the joys of a child, and the child won’t be able to know anything.
Jan. 22, 1973, in the Roe vs. Wade court case, abortion was made legal in this country. It is legal to have an abortion until the day of birth. That child aborted is a human, from day 21, the heart will start to beat and the next day, the eyes start to form. To ignore it’s human qualities and just look at it as an “it” is wrong. How can we be considered “humankind” if we murder our own kind without a second thought?
Of the women who have abortions, 79% are unmarried. 30% of abortions, the mothers are teenagers. What this shows, is that the majority of those who have abortions have sex at an irresponsible time. When they become pregnant, it is often viewed as a burden and as a result, 1 in six mothers “chooses” to murder that child. Since the human race began, mothers have been having children. What would our world be today if all those mothers decided that they didn’t want to contribute to the “surplus population”? What is happening to all these children is not just. What’s worse, it’s accepted, and pitied. Yes, it is a hard choice, but it needs to stop. Rather than comfort the mother after, stop the abortion before it happens. In the novel Les Miserables, by Victor Hugo, Javert is a police inspector who is engrossed in his absolute conviction towards justice. If he saw our society and our compliance with the murder of the innocent, well, let’s just say he would be very busy.
There is nothing more beautiful, and pure, than a newborn baby. Who could imagine seeing that infant, after it has been torn from the womb piece by piece? There are six different ways to abort the baby. “Ru-486” is a drug that the mother takes that blocks a hormone that provides food, fluid and oxygen to the baby. Then, the dead baby stays inside the womb for over a week, until it is born dead. “Suction-Aspiration” and “Dilation and Curettage” both work very much the same way. A blade similar to a blender is inserted into the uterus, where the baby’s body is cut into pieces, and then the pieces are removed. “Dilation and Evacuation” and “Dilation and Extraction”, also very similar, the baby is pulled from the birth canal until only the head remains in the womb. Then the skull is crushed and the rest of the baby is pulled out. And finally, the most common is “Prostaglandin Abortion” which a hormone that induces labor and the baby dies from the trauma of the delivery. But, if the baby is old enough, it will be born alive (then it’s called a “complication”). To prevent that, some abortionists use ultrasound to guide them as they inject a “feticide” into the baby’s heart, which kills it. The way these babies are aborted is sick and wrong.
A growing child brings laughter, love and a new sense of life into whomever their influence touches. A child means so much more than just the money they use, or the time they take out of the life we once knew. Every growing embryo needs the opportunity to see the light of day, safe and untouched by the world’s ugly claw. Those children are Americans before they are born, and cannot be denied their unalienable rights.
When a mother is in a situation where she is unable or unwilling to raise the child she bore, she needs to know that there are other options once the child is born. There are over two million families in our country that are waiting to receive children put up for adoption, and most of them actually want two or three. Adoption is a loving, and moral way to give the child the best possible chance at life. In Les Miserables by Victor Hugo, the characters of Jean Valjean, Javert, and Thenardier, take their circumstances very differently. Jean Valjean starts out with some poor choices, but he grows in a very moral direction, and his social circumstance improves because of it. Javert starts out in jail, and becomes the highest ranking police chief in France at the time, and Thenardier actually loses station because of his dishonest and negative behavior. It’s all about how we play our cards. Anyone can change their circumstances. The cards we are dealt is merely a starting point. We can do so much, if we merely push ourselves to use our cards better than we have before. To deny someone the chance to even see what their cards are is an unthinkable crime.
Abortion is a matter of life and death, and we have had way too much death. Our country has been seeing it far too leniently. We, as a nation beautiful, have to take responsibility for our actions and keep the innocence alive. We cannot ignore other pressing issues, but because of the high death rates, this is pressing. We as a people have to start with those in our lives. One at a time, we will keep our nation going strong.

Year pics

2008-11-11T15:36:00.000-08:00

Hey, here's some pics from the yearbook so far. It's worth looking at, if you get the time. Realize (if you are still in high school anyway) that this is directly proportional to the pictures i have. Spread the word. If one of you would post this on your facebook/myspace that would be great too. Thanx!

Shakespeare Comp. + Me

2008-10-05T19:27:00.000-07:00

As you may already know, we placed third in all team events! cause we rock! i personally am really happy with what has happened this weekend. yeah, there was some "drama" amongst us dramatic people that i wish would have been avoided, but the rest was wonderful. The first day, i felt so good about our ensemble performance, even the things that went wrong turned out to not be a big deal. At the tech Olympics everyone (but me) did such an awesome job! i was doing costuming and i had to fix a hem. well, a hem to me has always been where the fabric ends. so, when Becky (in the costume) came over to me and told me something to the effect of, the hem is too long, i automatically grabbed pins, and started pinning the fabric so that the bottom of it would touch the floor. upths, that wasn't what they wanted. They wanted me to fix the actual hem. so, i got a minute added to my time, which ended up being two thirty two. not good at all. so i felt bad about that, but, what do ya do? anyway, after all was said and done, i went over to Ben and Ashley's (my brother and sister-in-law) and went out to dinner and got ice cream. Then we went back to their place and watched a movie. i had a lot of fun. i heart them. The next morning Ben fixed me a more hearty breakfast than i have most mornings, which was really good. then, Becky and i headed down to meet the school. The next day was day of scenes. Stoker and i went to a total of 3 rounds, and i felt really good about all of them. our score and rating in the first round i expected. The second, i really didn't. That round, we thought we had our rating made. we figured we were on top, no problem, turns out, we were placed in the middle of the group. anyway, the third round, we did really good, and we were ranked first. i wasn't really expecting that ranking. All of our judges had something to say about our accents, but, you know, it was kind of a "double-edged sword" we had the accents to give us levels, and me sweetness. but, it cut down articulation and added one more thing to think about. so, yeah. Street said that the fact that we got superiors at all is a major compliment. Overall, yeah, we personally didn't win anything, but i still feel very good about how that all turned out. The rest of the evening passed, and when we got to the awards ceremony, i still felt good about everything. i am proud of all that has happened. The ceremony was awesome. afterwards, we were sitting waiting for everyone else to clear out, and we could hear the rain. So, we went outside. i took of my shoes, and we went puddle-jumping. i enjoyed that very thoroughly. i was sooooo cold though. especially during the drive home. but, even today, i feel good about this past weekend. i was kind of sad that i couldn't watch conference yesterday, but at least i will get the opportunity to read the talks when they come out with the next ensign. today's conference was so good. i really love those men, and women. they are all so wonderful. i can really feel of God's love through them. they had some awesome things to say too. Anyway, I hope you too had a great weekend. hearts!

my parental units

2008-09-28T20:53:00.001-07:00

I have decided that i love my parents. and no, not just cause they're my parents, but because of how amazing they are. As i was growing up, i was convinced that they knew everything that was important to know. i don't think any differently now. For example, after church today, i was sitting in the car with my mom, and i learned more from her in the five minutes i was there, than i did all throughout church! it was so cool! maybe I'm weird for saying so, but, i am so glad to be in the family i am in. it's such a nice thing knowing that i can completely trust my parents. i am not worried about them ever doing anything that would not be for my welfare. i could easily go on for many a page about them, but, i wont. mainly because i'm going to sleep! yay!

DENNY'S RUN

2008-09-27T08:14:00.000-07:00

Last night, we had planned to attend Lauren's B-day party, but, after so long, those that "had not broken from their shell" were starting to get on our nerves. ("our" being Becky, Melanie, and myself) So, we decided to go on a Denny's run. However, it would be rather dull with only 3. so, we started to contact the people at the game, to see if any of them would like to come after the game. We ended up going to my house, playing cards, taking pictures, and then watching the Swan Princess all in wait for those we were trying to contact. at ten, we went to Dani's where the majority of our group had gathered to see if there was anyone else that wanted to go. we ended up picking up six more people, and then we felt bad for taking away from Dani's party. but, we eventually got over it. The drive was a party. In Melanie's car, it became a mixture of a dance/sing party and when we got to Denny's there was very yummy, and very fattening food. so, we got it, then passed around the desserts. Just saying, i very much heart cheesecake. Our waitress was very unique. oh boy, she was really mean. it was halarious! she even damned Alex to Hell. But, after she realized how awesome us girls were, she was nice to us. ;) Then we went home. i was the only one to make curfew, by the way:) Then there was that whole car situation. . . but, i still enjoyed it. overall, it wasn't my favorite Denny's run, but it was definitely a party.

Mi Amigos

2008-09-21T18:47:00.001-07:00

Well, i have got THE coolest friends in the entire world!!! do you know how amazingly nice it is to feel comfortable enough with them (you) to talk to them (you) about the gospel or gospel principals any time i feel the need? They (yes, you ALL OF YOU) are so amazing, and i look up to them (you) so much. Sorry this sounds so sappy, but it is true. No, they aren't all in this picture, but becky put it together and it looks cool :). Anyway, keep being awesome!

Fear: no, i'm not kidding

2008-09-21T18:37:00.000-07:00

When most people talk of fear, it's of irrational things that can easily be brushed off with a small amount of courage. Long ago, i dismissed such things as fear. now, i truly fear only two things: the reality of the devil and his power, and something that i face every single stinking day of my life. During this blog, i won't talk about the thing i fear most. i will talk of that other thing i fear and face every stinking day of my life. I've faced it so often, unless i really think about it, i don't consider it fear. That thing is the constant inadequacy that i find so often. I can't change the world. i can barely change my own mind. it's sick how often i have to say "i can't". With that, what i truly fear most is that when i really need to say "i can!" i won't be able to. What has brought this on, is my new calling. i have officially been called to be the Assistant Ward Organist. now, yes, i took piano lessons for a very long time. but i just don't feel adequate enough to do such a thing. yes, only the first two rows can hear me cause i play the piano as the Ward Organist plays the organ, but it's still the reality of how often i feel like i disrupt the spirit with my many mistakes. and, because I'm running fifteen hours a day, i have a hard time finding time to practice. yeah, I'm sure that i could just stop getting on the computer, spend less time in the shower, etc. but honestly! I've got to have some time where i act irresponsibly! anyway, I'm working on it.

The Yearbook

2008-09-21T10:18:00.000-07:00

ok, so, being YB editor, everyone before told me how much it's going to suck. i'm going to be stuck in that wretched lab every day for hours at a time, no one is going to help, etc. but, look at me now! i've got 20+ members of staff, who are all working hard, and ready to go! Yeah, all members of staff have not ever been to YB camp or anything like that, so i pretty much have to start from scratch, but the important thing is that they're ready to learn. As for the book itself, i've got the first, second and part of the third deadlines well underway. GO ME AND MY FABO TEAM!!!!

First ever blog

2008-09-21T10:10:00.001-07:00

Well, this is my first ever blog. . . huh, i thought the words would come magicially. this is very interesting. . . anyway, i'll try to make this as exciting as possible so i won't include the trajedies and boring parts of my life. for now, i will leave you with this: "He who laughs last, didn't get the joke."